Same problem

Been long man. This girl i love had never texted me after i gave her cold replies. I was wondering whether should i take the first move or? I kept on asking myself this question. But in the end, just because of my ego, i decided not to. Well, if she really care about me as a friend or whatsoever, she would have texted me. She would not be even gossiping about me behind. Am i making the right choice? Many choices were given to me but i chose wrongly. Can this be the first right choice or? Hais. Need some enlightenment. How i wish i would know what is her feelings towards me. Cut that aside! i cant wait to go out with wayne and zai aka the lepak brothers! hahaha! they are really good brothers to me! talking shits and doing shits together and most importantly lepak together! good brothers i had!

Fall in love during the teenager period sucks

Falling in love is a very terrible feeling. Having a crush on other girls are not that terrible too. There is this girl i have been loving her. That feeling we all know. That special feeling. Recently, i had stopped talking to her all these shit. I had started avoiding her. I do not wish to give myself false hope. Why? I told myself that she will not like me lah. I know it all along. But i never gaveup. Recently, there is this very bad news i heard from my friend. This girl actually talk shit about me behind me. At that moment, I was blanked out. I actually treated her so good yet this things still happens. The next following daym she texted me asking me if i am alright. All i can do was to give her cold replies. Ouch, so heartbreaking to hear that. But well? things like this happens lot of times. I am wondering right now, whether this girl i love had been using me all these time? I do not know. I am really scared of this society. Everywhere, everytime i am being used. That just shows how stupid am i. To be honest, i am regularly asking myself whether I belong to this era? Love all these shit. Being together is just fate. I can understand if i am just having an one sided love. But i could not understand why girls are always like this? Does she truly treat me as a friend or just a puppet or a toy for her? I do not want to have the feeling that i am just a toy. When needed me, call and ask help from me. When do not need me, just dump me aside. I DO NOT WANT ALL THESE!!!! Maybe, is time for me to give up. It hurts but what can i do? Waiting for her to use me again? Let's just put it aside at the moment. O level first. In future, no more letting people of using me. 9 more days to go!!!

This good brother of mine

Life is not that simple i guess? No longer the life i had past when i am young. This particular friend of mine. He's a very good brother. Recently, we are not in talking terms. We had a quarrel. Because i am quite stupid I guess? When i got used, i am still having that blur face. That's how stupid i am. And finally, a disaster happen because of this. I told a secret and the secret was blown out to him. WOW. And that is before Os. I find myself really guilty and evil sometimes. What a good brother i had but i just had to backstab him twice. For other people, they would have beaten me up. I still dont know how he can endure me for so long. But nevertheless, i am very guilty over it. Life's not that simple anymore. Once we are carrying around stupidity, shit like this happens. Now, i am just hoping for a forgiveness from him? i guess?